He'll be there.

<<--See also: “Why were we talking about that,” and “A subset wedding story.”

My friend Erin is getting married in about a month. While we were out having lunch we were talking about some deep issues. I’m not going to air it out here but there was one small thing she mentioned that I will share.

There is a wedding invite sitting by my bed. I haven’t responded yet but it’s for me and a “guest.” I suppose I have been hoping that I could find a date to take with me to the wedding. As long as I have that RSVP card, there will always be the possibility that it could happen. I know that I will be going alone and although I could always invite one of my gal friends, I don’t want to use them in that way anymore.

If there is one thing that I wish for myself, that day, it is that I will be able dance with another man. It didn’t have to a serious affair but it did have to have some meaning. I thought that it would be a far flung fantasy—I was going to be alone. Maybe… there’s reason to hope.

Karl is going to be there.

Is she trying to say something?

My Aunt J sent me a birthday card which arrived today.

What kind of bees make milk? Boobies.

That joke was from one of the few gay movies that I've watched. So I thought it was ironic (is that the word) that this card came from my conservative homophobic aunt.

I think that I've mentioned before that my extended family probably have their suspicions about me. Without going into the reasons, my aunt and grandma are asking about my love life and whether I've been seeing any girls. I think that Aunt J has her suspicions because the gay subject tends to keep coming up. I also think that my Uncle A knows about me and is okay with it.

Paranoia? Perhaps. But I wonder.

More Soap

While I was finishing up the Luke and Noah (or the last of what was available on YouTube), I spotted another gay story line on the British show Coronation Street with the characters of Todd and Karl. I’m not gonna get into that but I was thinking about the viewers’ comments on both Luke/Noah and Todd/Karl.

Seeing a gay couple on television is a cool thing for me. Let’s put aside some of their questionable judgments that is required of television drama for a second, however. But there are a lot of commentators who hate what is going on with their respective shows. This was more evident with commentators for As the World Turns. The haters there make my homophobic conservative Aunt look like bleeding heart liberal. I had trouble wrapping my head around some of what was being said and I couldn’t understand why I was reading it.

If a person is against homosexuality, why would they watch in on YouTube, take the time to comment on it, and then come back to try and defend their positions? I’m seeing various posters coming back page after page and it’s striking that they would care that much. Even my church doesn’t go out of its way to express its view—which is against, by the way. In fact, I have never even heard homosexuality brought up in any service.

Obviously letters written to CBS show that a number of viewers of As the World Turns don’t like the homo story line. And I suppose that’s to be expected but YouTube and other sites? That’s a whole different ball of wax--you’ve got to be looking for that stuff. These people have either got be angry closet cases or your run of the mill troll. I want to believe that the people who really disapprove of these gay stories just tune out and let others have their moment in the light.

Luke and Noah? Where have I been?

During the last week or so I have been waking up to a certain song playing on the local radio station. I enjoyed it so I did a google search on it to find out what the song's name was and then a YouTube search so that I could listen to it. I found a vid clip that used the song and this is it:

I've watched soaps with my grandma when I lived with her on the farm so I know how those story lines can draw you in. I really wanted to know more about those two guys and so I dug further until I found out that they were Luke and Noah from the "As the World Turns." Apparently they have the distinction of being the first gay couple on day time TV. There was a series of clips on YouTube that I found that detailed their relationship. I watched almost all of it.

Dang soap opera hooked me in again!

Coincidentally I ran into more of Luke and Noah via another blogger. You can read his post here. Also, there was a news story on MSN. Three things about the same couple coming at me at almost the same time.

According to the article, there's a protest of the two characters. No, the protest is not about having a gay couple. It's about the lack of lip-locking. Which I agree with you. In all the clips that I had seen of those two, there was only two times they kissed. I'm not asking for a sex scene or anything but let's get real here. It's a soap opera, there's a lot worse they can show than two gay characters kissing every now and then. Sheesh.