Peering Out

I’m just a guy who is beginning the process of coming out fully to the world. These are my posts:

Thursday, May 12, 2005

I think I'll add a third.

I’ve slipped into a cold the past couple days without even realizing it. I thought it was just allergies. I almost called off yesterday but decided that I could live through it. My room is now more or less cleaned up since I had the day off to do it. Erin was supposedly around so I called her to see if she wanted to do anything. It turns out that she will be leaving for Europe on Tuesday. Wow, she really is going places. We’ll be meeting for lunch at the Happy House on Saturday. I’ve been debating whether I should let her in on my secret. It has been such a long time since we’ve actually talked to each other, that I don’t know how close we’ve remained. I guess I’ll find out soon enough. I also called Sara. I don’t know how she does it, but the first thing she asked me is if I had a cold. She could tell in my voice. How fucking great is that? No one else that I know could do that. It shows me a lot and it makes me happy. Following my plans for Erin, I wanted to take Sara out for lunch but it will be tomorrow. Just to talk and enjoy some company. She’s applied for a probation officer position. I hope that she gets it.

[I ended up not telling her. When we finally met up, we slipped back into that zone, that we were all familiar with. In fact, she later told me that I was one of those friends that she could be seperated for a long time but then pick right up when met again. Besides, we got to talking about a more exciting topic-- Europe. I'm not going there anytime soon (2012 is my earliest ETA) so I had to get some details of her trip. But I didn't loose heart, I knew that she would know eventually.]