Where do I go now?

Season told me today, “Don’t piss off your sister.” Thanks Season for just adding to my paranoia.

My uncertainty with coming out to my sister is taking its toll. It probably shows more in my other blog where I haven’t really posted anything about my personal life in a few days. My worries about my sister and what I told her have taken me over. I can’t vent them on the other blog because family and friends are aware of that blog.

Actually, I have been giving thought to linking to my other blog from this one. If you read the introduction, you can see that it was my intent all along to use this blog until such time that I can finally come out on my original blog. The last entry on this blog will be a link to my home blog where everything—sans gay part—is kept. I guess the only thing that really is keeping me from closing up shop here is… well… family.

My sister, right now, is the only one that knows in my family. And although my parents know about my blog, they have never visited it. The only one that’s left is my cousin, Jason. So when it comes down to it, he’s the only obstacle that’s keeping all of you from getting a more complete picture of me. Do I tell him? I have no problem with him knowing, it’s just that I don’t trust (?) him to keep his mouth shut.

For right now, I’m keeping this blog. It’s on track for what is was really intended, a place where I can write about this side of me until the time comes when my parents find out. Then, I couldn’t give a damn about who knows that I’m gay. Oh—which reminds me, thanks for viewing this blog and thanks coupled with hugs for those of you who commented. I can’t tell you how much it means to me to have people reading this.