I heard it through the grape vine

I heard it from Season who pretty much confirmed it for Kevin who was alerted by his mother, Sherri, that his brother, Kraig, said that someone in my class was coming out of the closet soon. (Umm, that would be me they are talking about.)

It all began a couple of weeks ago...

Season and I were set to go to the Venetian Festival. An incident occurred which scraped those plans. Instead, I tagged along with my good friend Erin, her boyfriend, Will, and another one of her friends, Stacey. To show how small our world is, Stacey is the fiancée of Kraig whose brother, Kevin, was in my grade and is openly gay. Anyways, Kraig for whatever reason didn't come with us. As we were walking at the festival, I thought that Stacey was making a joke about us being seen as a couple. I replied, "You're barking up the wrong tree."

A while ago, I decided that I wouldn't hide my sexuality when it came to Erin or any of her friends. Although, I knew that Stacey was going to marry Kraig, I honestly didn't care to hide it from her or consequently, Kraig. And it wasn't like it was a planned outing. I don’t go around saying, “Hey, I’m gay.” It just came up in conversation—a jest. I know that I run a risk doing it that way. I’m not sitting them down telling them my secret and swearing them to an oath of secrecy. They are free to tell whoever they want.

So this afternoon while Season and I were having dinner, she says, “Kevin knows.” How the hell did Kevin find out? Season and Kevin apparently had a phone conversation. From what I have gathered, Stacey must have told Kraig, who then told his mother, Sherri, who told Kevin. Kevin asked if Season knew who was the person in our class and well… he figured it out.

Does this pose a problem? I don’t know. I’m sure if he knows, the word is out and I haven’t gotten the word back just yet. I’ll find out soon I guess and I suppose waiting for that confirmation is scaring me a little.

The original plan was to go to Kraig and Stacey’s wedding and keeping a low profile so to speak. That is their day and I wasn’t going to steal some of their thunder by coming out to Kevin or anyone else. Again, I wasn’t going to hide it, but I don’t see how my sexual preference would come up in such a situation. Now, I’m wondering how I’m going to react when Kevin and I see each other at the wedding. Does he know that I know? Is he going to ask sly questions or will he blunt about it and just ask me?

Did I loose you, dear reader? I thought I might’ve.