Going through with it.

I was able to compose myself over the last couple days and have returned to my normal self—repressing my inner most desires and thoughts. I was ready to call the whole thing off with Sara. I could operate again. But what if this happens again? I need someone to talk to. I need to be myself with someone and right now the closest thing I have is Sara. Yet, even with her, I’m not quite sure. I feel like we are two blind people that need to reach out, but are too afraid to do so. I know that there are things that she keeps from me. I know that I am not the closest person to her but I’ve got to try. So, I am still going to do this. Let’s hope that I do the right thing.